My Entries

Thoughts: 
Here is a list off all my posts on this blog. As I create them they will be added to this list for easy access and review. Mostly for myself.

IttyBittyBlog:

1. Camp Under a Tree [July 8th, 2010]
   - Me sitting under a tree typing about what's going on around me at Heart Camp.
2. Fire Red Hideout [July 10th, 2010]
   -  Talking about the Pokemon Fire Red, and random stuff at Heart Camp.
3. Pasta Dilemma [July 13th, 2010]
   - Being hungry, having pasta, but not sure what to cook it with. 
4. Hard Drives and Backing up [July 14, 2010]
   -  Almost killing my External.
5. Irritatingly Irritable [July 17th, 2010]
   - Being irritated by clutter and surroundings.
6. Irritatingly Irritable Update [July 19th, 2010]
   - A storage system my Mom found that I like.
7. Stressers and Reactions [July 25th, 2010]
   - How I deal with stress.
8. Randomness About Writing [July 26th, 2010]
   - Rambling about no ideas to write about plus a comic.
9. Confessions with an Addiction [July 27th, 2010]
   - Certain friends are my drug. Like an addiction I can't give it up.
10. The Way I See It [July 27th, 2010]
    - My views on how people treat each other.
11. What I [July 29th, 2010]
    - A list of the things I
12. Explained in Icons - one [August 1st, 2010]
    - Explaining my life in icons. 
13. Explained in Icons - two [August 1st, 2010]
    - Explaining my life in icons.
14. A letter to one that will not know [August 4th, 2010]
    - A letter to a person. 
15. What Do You Think Your Ideal Weight Is? [August 10th, 2010]
    - What I think my weight should be.
16. A Bit of College Advise [August 15th, 2010]
    - Advise that I've learned these past three years.
17. Fat Blog ... and Ice cream [August 18th, 2010]
    - About starting a 'fatspo' blog.
18. New Organization [August 19th, 2010]
    - New organization for my blog.
19. To Draw [August 20th, 2010]
    - About drawing Sam a picture.
20. Final Weeks of Summer [August 27th, 2010]
    - Random bits about the events of that last week.
21. Family in Town [August 28th, 2010]
    - Losing a three paragraph entry and heading to Gram's.
22. I Want to Travel [August 29th, 2010]
    - How much I want to just pack up and travel.
23. One Day Left of Summer [August 31, 2010]
    - Random about the last day of summer. 
24. Class Starts Today [September 1st, 2010]
    - Thoughts on the first day of class.
25. Itty Bitty iPod Charger [September 2nd, 2010] 
    - My new iPod Charger. 
26. September 2010 [September 2nd, 2010]
    [Private]
27. Labor Day Weekend [September 3rd, 2010]
    - Thought I was scammed by eBay.
28. Answer: Yes [September 4th, 2010]
    - Set up eBanking & leaving to see my great-aunt
29. Start Paving A New Road [September 5th, 2010]
    - Creating & breaking habits.
30. Costume Ideas [September 6th, 2010]
    - Idea's for Halloween.
31. 1/2 Fullfilled [September 7th, 2010]
    - Morning ramble for the day.
32. Rabbit Hole [September 8th, 2010]
    - Thoughts of Alice, and poems of randomness.
33. Dreams Sky High [September 9th, 2010]
    - Dreams for the future.
34. Concert Confussion [September 13th, 2010]
    - Confusion with a 30 Second's To Mars concert.
35. [insert title here] [September 14th, 2010]
    - Attempting to work on math.
36. My Dollies [September 17, 2010]
    - Dolls that I find online that I like and think are quite unique looking.
37. Costume [September 19th, 2010]
    - Items bought for my costume.
38. Myself Night [September 19th, 2010]
    - A night to myself. {12:06 am Sep. 20th}
39. N64 Memories [September 20th, 2010]
    - Playing N64 games on a flat-screen big-screen.
40. Pink Taffy Designs - Review [September 23rd, 2010]
    - A review on Pink Taffy Designs: a toddler/children's clothing site.
41. "I almost forgot ..." [September 30th, 2010]
    - Icons and quotes that I found on VulgarSanity's to remind myself why I'm not with my ex.
42. Into the Money Hole [October 1st, 2010]
    - A rant about keeping track of money - or lack there of.
43. Autumn is in the Air [October 2nd, 2010]
    - Some words about things in balance.
44. School Days & Good Grades [October 4th, 2010]
    - Received an "A" on a Web Design assignment.
45. My Diet [October 9th, 2010]
    - Some notes about a diet related to my blood type.
46. Money Thoughts [October 14th, 2010]
    - A tip I found about managing money and my goals.
47.  I Could Never Forget [October 15th, 2010]
    - Some icons, quotes, and thoughts about my Love. { }
48. Bucket List [October 15th, 2010]
    - [Private]
49.  Good Hearted Women [October 26th, 2010]
    - Lyrics to a country western song I've luved since childhood. 
50. Possessions in 100 Items [October 27th, 2010]
    - [Private]
51. They [November 4th, 2010]
    - [Private]
52. Spaces In-Between [January 22nd, 2011]
    - The beginning of a new semester, and memories.
53. Woody Woodpecker [January 23rd, 2011]
    - My "new" box for art class. 
54. Wedding Distractions [January 26th, 2011]
    - Wedding dress ideas.
55. 21st Birthday [February 6th, 2011]
    - Pictures from my 21st Birthday Surprise that Sam did for me.
56. TV Memories  [February 6th, 2011]
    - Reminiscing on an old TV design.  
57. Top Hat from Michele-E [February 12th, 2011]
    - An image of a Victorian top hat that Michele found on DeviantART
58. Pokemon - Fire Red [March 16th, 2011]
    - My pokedex as I play the game.
59. Life's Confusions [April 13th, 2011]
    - [Private]
60. Mental Insanity [April 13th, 2011]
    - An image and my comment on the subject.
61. Are anchors well? [April 14th, 2011]
    - [Private]
62. You and Me [April 14th, 2011]
    - Start of a new year.
63. Karin [April 14th, 2011]
    - [Private] 
64. Day before B-Day [April 18th, 2011]
    - Pa's birthday is tomorrow.  
65. Wedding Dream Come True [April 20th, 2011]
    - A women walks down the isle after being confined to a chair for three years.
66. Thoughts ... [May 5th, 2011]
    - Spazzing about  life.
67. Passing of a Great Doctor & a Great Man [March 28th, 2011]
    - My thoughts on the passing of a great cardiologist 
68. Strait to Go [May 8th, 2011]
    - Poem about my boyfriend. 
69. Findings [June 7th, 2011]
    - A ring that I like. 

Strait to Go

Sam's taking a nap ...

He lays upon the bed
sound a sleep and breathing.
His eyes are closed but I know,
As he drifts farther they'll open.

I look at his parted lips and smile
His relaxed face is beautiful to me.
His body curves around mine
And his arm drapes over my leg.

My heart flutters and I know a secret:
This is the man I love
The man I wish to marry
To keep till my life passes.

This is the one whose eyes I look into
And I see a little girl with his features.
Our blonde hair and his eyes
Running into his arms.

I never want to break his heart,
Never on purpose like it has been in the past.
No item is more precious
And I would like nothing but to show him I care

I regret the stress I put him through
Without meaning to,
By just being me.
I don't deserve him. 

Wedding Dream Come True

Below is a the link to a video about Jennifer Darmon, a bride who on Saturday married Mike Belawetz. So she got married, so what? People get married everyday. What makes this story moving is that for three years she's been confined to a wheelchair, results of a sever spinal injury she recieved from a car accident in 2008. On March 25th she was chosen as ABC's "World News" Person of the Week, and it was that day that she made the promise on national news " I will be walking down the aisle. It's not an if or a maybe. It's absolutely going to happen."

https://docs.google.com/leaf?id=0BzASc6pm00YYNGNjMDc3YTctMzI5Mi00ZDkxLWIxNzMtOTU1NTg1MGI5YjZh&hl=en&authkey=CMDeqOAH

Day before B-Day

Sam's currently sleeping next to me on my bed and Avril Lavigne is playing from my iPod. I have it playing threw the songs I have of hers over and over, don't ask why, just because I enjoy listening to her stuff.

Today was Palm Sunday. I forgot but happen to put on a red shirt anyways under my sweatshirt so I was in correlations ... sort of. My Dad and I got our palms, one for each of us including Mom, then after church met her at the local diner for breakfast. I was watching this one little boy spend the whole mass pulling apart the palms layer by layer, thread by thread, and it made me laugh inside because I used to do that all the time. Then I saw one Dad carry his son out of the church to calm him down [I think the little boy fell or something] and for some reason it made me wonder how old I was when I started going to Mass with my Dad. My Dad doesn't really seem like the type that would carry a baby carrier to mass on his own, and my Mom doesn't go to mass with us ninety-eight percent of the time because she's not Roman Catholic ... 

Yesterday my Great Uncle came into town so Sam and I went with my Gram and her boyfriend to pick him up. While we waited Gram and I got talking about family that I never see, and another Great Uncle of mine was brought up that I've only talked to once in my life [took a phone message from him], that I can remember, and I asked her about why he drinks. Gram said that he doesn't anymore, but that he used to drink because he couldn't deal with what he seen during World War Two. That pretty much explained it for me. Back then they didn't know about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, let alone how to help the soldiers suffering from it. I guess now he lives up in the mountains not far from where his ex and kids live; that way he's close to them but far away from everything else. I'm glad to hear things have gotten better for him.
The only time I can remember talking to him was when he called the house a few year ago for my Mom. When she got home and I gave her the message she said she wasn't talking to him, saying he only ever calls when he's drunk. I told her that he didn't sound drunk when I talked to him, but she shrugged it off and that was it. I want to call him up and say hi.

I need to call people more often. I haven't talked to Norma in for ever, same with Tim, I need to call my Gram more, I want to see how Uncle Sunny's doing, Uncle Dave, Ann, Michele, Karla ... I'm so bad when it comes to keeping in touch with people.

I wish he could sleep over, he looks so comfy that I don't want to wake him up. 

PS: We had ice cream cake for Pa's birthday, a nice surprise that him and Dad enjoyed. They had at least a quarter of the cake each! [It was a small cake but still!]

Mental Insanity

Do you feel like your not the only one in your head as well?